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The show Andromeda does not belong to me, and neither does it characters. I’m just borrowing them. I’ll give them back unharmed, when I’m done with them.
Thank you to Chelley for proof reading my story and fixing my mistakes. Love you girl. Also thank you to Meretean and Dani for giving me the courage to do this.
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Beka was standing by the large window in hydroponics. She was staring out
into space, looking at the stars just like she had been all her life. However,
this time it felt different. It felt empty and cold. She felt a twinge of
loneliness creep over her, and she instinctivly wrapped her arms around
herself, as a protection from the chill.
She began thinking of all the men in her past who had either betrayed her or just plain left her. Tyr had been the last one, and the memory left her cold and in pain. Now there was a new Nietzschean on Andromeda, and she had begun having those feelings again. She feared those feelings. Every time she had given herself over to those feelings in the past it had led to disaster for her heart. He seemed different than Tyr, but he was still a Nietzschean. Could he be trusted? And if so for how long? She was suspicious, yet her heart were longing for his companionship. Her body was silently screaming to be close to him, but her mind was giving her stern warnings, telling her to be careful. She wanted him, but did he want her? She wanted to talk to him, but she was afraid to. Her heart was in turmoil.
Beka was so wrapped up in her thoughts that she didn’t hear the door
open and close behind her. She didn’t hear the person silently and
slowly walking up to her. She didn’t become aware of Rhade’s
arrival until he was right behind her and she could feel the heat from him
radiating against her back. She felt him put his hands on her shoulders
and she shivered. He didn’t say anything as they were standing there
looking out the window in complete silence.
The warmth from him was beckoning Beka. She slowly began leaning into him, feeling his warmth envelope her. She could feel his arms softly being wrapped around her as she leaned into him completely. His breath felt warm and comforting against her neck and Beka just wanted to lose herself in him. Her mind was whispering warnings to her, but they were drowned out by the sound of her beating heart. They stood there in silence for what seemed like an eternity. Beka felt safe and warm in his arms. She wanted to stay there forever, not wanting to move for fear that any movement might shatter the moment and make him withdraw from her.
She suddenly felt his arms move, and the chill rushed in. In a desperate
attempt to hold on to the comforting moment, she grabbed for his hands.
He slowly freed his hands and placed them on her shoulders, turning her
around in the process. He pulled her towards him and leaned into her with
his forhead against hers. He let his hands slide softly down her arms until
he reached her hands. Taking hold of them, he brought her arms around him,
inviting her into an embrace. Beka went willingly, leaning into his chest
as she wrapped her arms around him. She snuggled her face into his neck
and inhaled the fresh scent of him. He brought his arms around her, brushing
her hair away from her neck at the same time. She could feel his warm breath
on her neck as he moved in. His lips felt like soft, hot flowing lava as
they trailed their way slowly from her jawline to the tip of her shoulder.
His hands softly caressed her back from her shoulders to her hips.
Beka felt like every nerve ending in her entire body was on fire, and it
was making her mind fuzzy, drowning out any warnings running through her
brain. Her body felt shaky and limp, and she pressed against him to keep
her balance. He picked her up gracefully into his arms as though she weighed
nothing at all. His warm brown eyes locked with her blue. He looked at her
with a tenderness she had never seen before. Beka’s emotions overwhelmed
her completely as she brought her arms around his neck and put her head
on his shoulder. For the first time since she was a child she felt safe.
She nuzzled his neck briefly before lifting her face to place a soft kiss
against his jawline.
He began walking out of hydrophonics with Beka in his arms. The Andromeda was quiet this time of night, so they didn’t meet anyone on their way through the hallways. He carried her into his quarters and set her softly down upon his bed. Sitting down next to her he framed her face with his hands, staring into her eyes. His eyes displayed the same yearning she felt inside. He was looking at her like he wanted her permission to continue.
She granted him the approval he wanted by leaning towards him, finding his lips with hers. The kiss was soft and tender as they let their hands wander, exploring one another. She could feel the defined muscles of his chest move beneath the shirt before her hands moved their way to his back. The kiss became deeper and more passionate, fueled by the fire they were stirring in each other. Beka started tugging at his shirt and, with his help, she slipped it over his head and tossed it aside. Looking at his bare chest made the fire within her grow even more as she let her hands play gently from his neck to his waistline.
The rest of their clothes disappeared in a haze, like a passionate dream. Beka leaned back on the bed with Rhade halfway on top of her. Their exploration continued, feeding the flames of passion to the point of an engulfing inferno. Coherent thought vanished.
He gently separated her legs with his hand, finding her core. Every muscle in Beka’s body tensed up at the intrusion, causing her to take a strained breath as he played with her inner depths. Her hips bucked towards him, begging him to enter. Her hands grabbed his hair, pulling him closer. He slid between her legs, prodding at her entrance, taking his time as he slowly entered her. She felt more and more complete as he buried himself in her.
Her hands still explored, raking her nails down his back, pulling him towards her and urging him forward. He began making slow thrusts as he was kissing her, biting at her lips playfully before moving down her neck. She could feel the muscles in his back shifting to accomodate him as he was moving against her. Beka began kissing his neck as he lifted himself up a bit on his arms, letting her tongue trail his jawline.
Their breathing became heavier and more strained as he kept thrusting into her, over and over, increasing his speed moment by moment. Beka could feel a small ripple through her inner core, building in intensity. She could hear herself groaning between the gasps of air, gripping Rhades back and shoulders. Suddenly it felt like her inner core exploded, sending a massive ripple throughout her entire body. Rhade covered her mouth with his to muffle her cries. Beka gave in to the tremors and let them wash through her unrestrained, beckoning her to darkness as her body began to relax after it’s release. Rhade followed her a few seconds later, his body tensing up and a deep growl escaping his lips as he filled Beka with his seed before collapsing on top of her.
As Beka regained her senses, she felt Rhade sliding off her and lying down
next to her. He pulled her towards him into an embrace, and she snuggled
up to him while placing her arm across his chest. She was exhausted, yet
very satisfied. She felt safe in his arms, and she felt sleep creeping up
on her. The thought ”Maybe he is worth the risk. Maybe he is different
than the others.” went through her mind.
The last thing she heard before sleep claimed her completely
was Rhade turning towards her and whispering ”I love you, Beka”.