| Goodbye |
Disclaimer: Andromeda belongs to Gene Roddenberry.
AN: Popped into my head just recently. This is an AU universe where Arkology never happened. I meant to watch Part 2 of the season premier but I forgot to set my VCR to record, so I missed thirty six minutes, because it came on just as I was getting off work. Yeah days later and I’m still ticked off. I just felt like writing something depressing.
My dearest Beka,
In your life you were never mine, because I was foolish enough not to tell you how I felt. Yes I Telemacus Rhade, descendent of Gaheris Rhade was afraid of telling you how important you were to me.
You showed me at times you felt the same, not with words, but by looks and actions. You were everything I could ever want in a woman, but I never acted on them. Why?
Why? That word repeats endlessly in my mind over and over again. It has been two months since you departed this universe and I still feel the void. I guess I thought I had all the time in the world to tell you how I feel. Maybe I was afraid you wouldn’t feel the same way about me. We’re genetically engineered to be brave in anything, but even love can’t be solved by perfection.
The other crew members miss you, Trance spends a lot of time with her plants, Harper has been on the verge of tears many times, but he has cried, his eyes have been red and swollen. Rommie talks about you and Dylan....
Rhade stopped writing as rage filled him, Dylan was the reason Beka was
no longer here. The reason Beka had sacrificed herself. Because Dylan and
Rommie were in love and had just gotten together. Beka saw the weapon being
aimed at Dylan and jumped in front of him, fully intending to knock both
of them out of the way, but the energy beam had struck her, and one week
later Beka was dead.
He began to write again.
Trance says recording thoughts on paper helps but it hasn’t. I saw you ten minutes before you died and I could’ve told you, but I was blind and now that chance is forever gone. I would give anything to do this journey all over again.
Goodbye Beka Valentine and I’m am sorry that it is forever. You were a friend, crewmate, warrior so many things.
I’m trying to cope but it is hard. Dylan seeks me out trying to get me to talk, saying some crap about how much he hurts like me.
I will never forgive him.
Goodbye Beka.